I’ll say it again,

Though I’ve said it before.

I’ll run out of breath,

As you choose to ignore…

Don’t ask me why I’m crying,

You’ve refused to see my pain.

You told me to shove it down, 

You said I was insane.

I thought that if I died,

The pain would follow suit.

But it lingers on and on,

Never is it through…

The waves are too high,

I’m drowning and tossed.

At the bottom of the sea,

Lies all that I’ve lost…

My words are all gone,

You refused to listen.

I pleaded for so long,

But my words, you missed them…

I’m worn out and beat up,

By things I can’t see.

Things that live,

On the inside of me…

I’ve fallen in a pit,

I wallow and I sit.

As the hole it seems grows deeper.

I cannot decide,

If I should escape or hide.

As the walls around get steeper.

There once was a flower,

Growing in the grass.

Standing small and pretty,

It was blooming on a path…

Colorless and barren,

A dessert full of waste.

A well without water,

And food without taste…

I’ve been here so long,

Time keeps on going.

I think it’s the end,

But the darkness keeps growing…

My smile is missing,

It just went away.

Tried as I might,

It just wouldn’t stay…

I want to be free,

But I cannot surrender.

I’m a slave to the moments,

The things I remember…

My image of glass,

Hangs by a thread.

All it takes is a crack,

On the eggshells you tread…

They said I was free,

But chains I still feel.

They tell me to fly,

And my pain is not real…

Burdened and weary,

From this load that I carry,

Now my shoulders, they slump low…

I’m back in the place,

I was years ago.

It feels so different,

Yet I’ve nothing to show…

I’m just a shell,

That’s all I have left.

There’s nothing within,

I’m void and bereft.

Lacking emotion,

But mourning a death…

You say “come to me,

All who are weary,

And I will give you rest”.

So I come to you,

But I don’t know what to do,

To get this burden off of my chest…

Here’s where I laid,

I laid here for days.

My lungs not expanding,

My lungs not contracting.

My body not dead,

My lungs only acting…